Nov. 7, 2026
Wait a difference a day made... One of the great jazz standards says it all. I went into yesterday still dealing with my fears and anxieties about owning a home with my partner, but by the end, I felt inspired and invigorated to walk this path together with her into the unknown.
Moving past all of these difficult feelings began with the phone conversation with my parents, in which they lovingly told me that they wanted to give us this money. That they saw how far I'd come in recovery and this gift was a part of their way of saying, we see your growth, and we want to support you. There are no words to express my gratitude for their generosity.
But then, when our lawyer reached out to set up the closing date, I called my partner, and we both had the jitters at first. Then M, my partner, said, “It feels like we're holding hands about to jump off a cliff together.” That image gave me a feeling of confidence and excitement that I hadn't felt before in regards to the house. There's no one I would rather jump off a cliff with than M. She is such a good partner and friend, and the fact that that image made me feel better about things rather than more fearful I think is a pretty good indication that we're ready to take the plunge.
Wish us luck!
PS Another thought I had was that Higher Power, Benevolent Spirits, Ancestors, Animals, and the land are all here to help us, guide us, and protect us. How lucky are we?! Amen!